Patient

I can be patient, I'm willing to wait.
I love you, I'm not going away.
I won't hurt you but I don't want to be in your way.
I want you to be happy.
I want you to be okay.
I smiled because you used to make my day.
I miss that because it all went away.
I need you but without you I can deal.
I am okay without happiness but sometimes I forget that its real.
I miss you but I am silent still.
I was replaced but I am patient still.
I was not angry, because I understood why.
I promised myself that I wouldn't cry.
I ache to call you, but your voice would break what has healed.
I wish to see you, but really I just keep my lips sealed.
I miss you and how you made me real.
I am not needed, I do not feel.
I needed you because you were the one thing that helped me deal.
I am just a girl, no one wants me to be real.
I believed you when you said those three words.
I was so stupid to believe you meant those damn words.
I keep my lips shut, not crying, not making a sound.
I long for your comfort, waiting for you to find what you already found.
I ease into slumber, for I do not wish to dream.
I hate my reality, because I want things to be what they seemed.
I justify your actions, by knowledge of who you are.
I know who I am and who you are, I just wanter if you can see my scars.
I clutch my chest because my heart hurt, aching for your arms.
I can't be touched, because I am afraid that whoever touches me will cause me harm.
I break down, not making a sound as I hide the person I've become.
I call her to soothe my fears, my thoughts, my tears as she watches what you have done.